The Words I Can't Whisper
Just a diary of a young adult.
What I've Done- The Last Few Months ----reposted
----Warning------
This is the diary of an adult. I talk about adult things. If you are not an adult then don't read. FYI I use naughty words and talk about naughty things. Don't like, don't read. Just sayin.
Dear Diary-
It's just one of those days that running away doesn't sound so terrible. I bet hawaii is nice this time of year.... awh a girl can daydream. Ugh that's a lie. I always say that, but truly if I had to run off somewhere it'd be Bora Bora. I've always wanted to go their.
Truth is that i'm in an indecent amount of shit. laughs. Yes, you read that right. My heads still totally friked up, and the unrelenting amount of stress is making me irritable, impatient, blabby, and unreasonable. Frik me. I tried suffocating myself with a pillow. The thought occured to me while I was screaming into it. Obviously it didn't work. shit. Anyway so I should rewind if i'm going to tell my story properly
The Art Of Being Unwanted
The Art Of Being Unwanted
Give Everything
Take Nothing
Demand Nothing
Be Nothing
Lead with your heart
Fight with your mind
Stand Beside them
Follow behind them
Fall before them
Become used
Ask for something
Become less
Fade away unnoticed
Stay away unnoticed
Answer their calling
Breathing slowly
Heartbeat fades
Lost wanting
Never wanted.
enough for now, Truly
Show Someone You Care
Never Love Me
They'll never love me,
Even as I write.
Heartless whispers,
Burn my sight,
Endless rumors tear my eyes,
Never love me,
They never will,
My heart is empty, blank, and hurting still.
My unloved, uncared, unheard dilemma,
Never love me.
I cry while im sleeping, and as I wake
When I'm alone,
And my smiles are fake,
Never love me .
My lies of careful happiness,
Leave me to myself .
You think im happy,
You think your proud ,
I lay crying while you can't see,
They'll never love me,
I know they won't ,
I tell myself I don't care. I can't care
But it hurts so bad.
To you im still perfect,
But they'll never love me,
It's just a cruel fact,
However much it pains you,
I just can't live with that.
Too many people only notice something is wrong when it's too late to do something about it. It's when you get that feeling something is off, but you choose to ignore it, thinking the problem will sort itself out. Take the time to notice, take the time to care, take the time to talk. Sometimes a few simple words can save a life. Be a friend, show someone you care.
enough for now
Just Some Music
About This Girl
I have learned so much in my life, yet I'm still incredibly behind with a whole world left undiscovered. I keep expanding my horizons bit by bit, though it doesn't seem like enough. I've never witnessed the ocean with my own eyes, or rode in an airplane. I've never been to Disney world or climbed a mountain. I've never skied or scuba dived or sailed the seven seas. I've never been to Paris. I've never seen a pyramid or a leaning tower. I've never fallen in love or gotten butterflies. I've never had a kiss that made me close my eyes. I've never stood under a waterfall or been anywhere tropical at all. I've never eaten chocolate in the rain. I've never seen a castle or ridden on a train. When I was little I chased faeries that I could never see, though I've always believed in magic and blessed be. I've always known what I was meant to do, even though I'd never admit it afraid I'd never come true. I use to wish on stars upon stars the dimmest, the brightest whichever my heart told me to choose. I like to win, I hate to lose. I sometimes say the exact opposite of what I mean. I like to think things through, everything no matter how ridiculous it seems. I am not patient, though I understand the term 'opportune moment', but I hate it. I know what I want just not how to get it, that I'm sure I'll figure out along the way. I want my happily ever after, but this is just me, what can I say?
enough for now
A Poetic Twist
Days Of Blah
By Truly Edwards
I'm fallen to darkness that embitters my soul
lost to the happiness that once burst my heart into laughter,
disalussioned genius that hides light form my eyes,
contemplating growth of my innocence that turned to lies,
not as young as I once remember,
Sighing among dragons that spit fire instead of words,
words that danced over lips, like rain on a cool day,
forever lost in arrogance and ignorance,
and tales of time that have no ending.
I had a really long day.... i'm no poetic genius, but I do the trick. By the way I used word pad, so no spell check, my bad.
enough for now
